How do i feel toward u?

To him:

i wish to know

i wish to see

i wish to hear

but at the same time,

i avoid to know
i avoid to see

i avoid to hear

i avoid to touch

i avoid to think

To he:

i dont feel miss

I dont feel love

i dont feel care

i dont feel sacrifice

i dont feel dependent

anymore

Im tired.

To you:

i start miss u

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Yeah, finally she asked and i told her everything! Thanks god! Such a big release for me. She was shocked when i told her this wasn't my idea and decision. Once again, i feel hurt....not the decision he made, but the selfishness and cruel of him. Everything ended with the 2 sentences, ntg else! Im regret for not asking the reason and wat actually make him be so mentality in the sudden. This is not him, totally not. Especially the way he act after the relationship...This is not him.